Struggles, Success and Perspective




Photograph by Jacques Henri Lartigue

I think one of the key things to being happy and okay with yourself is learning to come to terms with failure, and almost embrace it. By now I realise that  everybody has to fail at things in order to become successful, it’s just how it goes. There are countless examples of this, like the fact that JK Rowling’s first book was rejected by 12 publishers, or that one of Thomas Edison’s teachers said he was “too stupid to learn anything” or even that Vincent Van Gogh only sold one painting whilst he was alive! It is the struggle of doing something creative, and quite often you don’t get recognised from the word go or even for a long time. Creative work is subjective and not everybody is going to like what you do.

Now we have the internet we can choose to show people our best bits and our biggest successes, displaying them and sharing them with whoever we want. Unfortunately sharing work has backfired on me in the past, the internet gives people something to hide behind so they can therefore be as mean as they want without the same consequences it would have in the outside world. I think you have to understand that whenever you show your work online you are taking the risk of criticism and unwanted comments, but you just have to hope that the people who look at it are kind enough not to say anything that isn’t constructive.

Being successful is harder these days. Most of the best work in the creative industries lies in London, and not all of us can afford to up and leave to London which is regarded as THE MOST EXPENSIVE place to live in in the world according to The Telegraph. Most of the internships are in London, which means working for free or generally low pay in a really expensive city, so you can either live there or travel there everyday, working out as about the same cost. Your other option is to wait it out in your own city and look for jobs there, save up some money and eventually move to London where you’ll probably be extremely poor for a good few years.

With these options becoming less and less appealling more people are deciding to take it upon themselves and start up their own businesses. This seems like an ideal job, doing what you love and working for yourself! Where do I sign up? The problem is you need money to start up your own business otherwise the road is slow. I’ve just come out of uni with a huge debt and a massive overdraft, who wants to lend me some more money? I have been told there are people that will, but in all honesty I don’t really want to put myself in anymore debt at the moment. I want to earn money to get myself out of the debt I’m already in.

So the internet becomes a very valuable tool for people like me, who want to get their work out there and want to create opportunities for themselves. It is hard at the moment, I won’t lie, I feel like there is so much competition out there I wonder how will I ever get to where I want to be. However, when I hear about these successful people’s failure stories it gives me hope. So in the end it’s not only other peoples successes that inspire me but also their failures, which is why it’s so important to embrace your own failures. Nobody gets to where they want to be without hitting a few or a lot of hurdles on the way. Cliche I know.

Things might be hard now but I know from experience that you do get something back in the end. All I know is that I have never quit anything, even though I have wanted to so badly (*cough* uni *cough*) because I know it will end eventually and life is just too short to pass up things you know will help you in the end. Sometimes I feel like I’ve really pushed myself to do something and I’m really proud of it but then I get nothing back. I’m not going to get a gold star every time I do something that requires effort anymore, I just have to have a good perspective on life and not let my failures make me bitter but instead a better person. There is always going to be somebody worse off than you and everybody has things that make them feel like shit, even bloody Beyonce who is much much better off than me (so much). That’s the kind of perspective I mean.

“Everyone is fighting their own battles, try not to be a ****” say’s the internet.

I mean to say this not just to myself but to anybody else feeling the pinch of life at the moment. I’m not trying to tell you how to live your life, I just thought I would post something that I’m feeling at the moment and maybe it can help other people as well.

This is my favourite song right now. They were the first band we saw at Glastonbury, and now I can’t stop listening to them.


Pete Doherty at The Fleece in Bristol and My Glastonbury Experience

Music, My photography

Hello again!

Last Thursday I went to The Fleece again to shoot Pete Doherty at one of his intimate gigs before The Libertines reunion in Hyde Park. This was a great opportunity for me, and kind of insane considering how obsessed me and my friend Alice were with him back in the day. I just googled when ‘The Libertines’ the album came out and it was bloody 2004! Wow ten years ago. That was such a great time, I love that album. When Pete moved on to Babyshambles I went to see him at Bristol academy as well as Glastonbury in 2005, and although he always turned up late I still remember those gigs as being great fun. There was one point when me and Alice were walking through the mud at Glastonbury and we saw Pete D and Kate Moss walking towards us. I remember whispering to Alice and hiding my face behind my paper cider pint trying not to scream (we were 15 at the time). That was around the time I became really interested in live music photography and started following photography blogs.

The gig on Thursday had so much energy and the crowd really really enjoyed it despite him being late on. Pete was on stage with a girl on the violin, who was super talented, whilst he had his acoustic guitar. The gig reminded me how good a song writer he is, playing all the best Libertines and Babyshambles songs. He was really funny as well and even sang somebody in the crowd happy birthday!








Hope you like them! Always looking for new bands to photograph, so if you want to get in contact email me

Last weekend was Glastonbury which was absolutely awesome! I really really enjoyed it. The best performance for me was London Grammar, which were on at the same time as Kasabian who I know a lot of people said were amazing as well. London Grammar were so perfect though, Hannah Reid has the most amazing voice and they had a live orchestra playing with them! At the end of the set the bloke closing the John Peel stage said “Wow, I think that’s probably one of the best closes we’ve had on the John Peel Stage”. I really wanted to cry whilst watching them but I didn’t let myself, I hate crying in public (nobody loves it I guess). If you go to see one band before you die, go and see London Grammar!

Other high lights include Metallica, Jack White, Courtney Barnett, Robert Plant and Annie Mae’s macaroni cheese stall!!!! Oh wow. I had macaroni with jalapeno’s and sour cream and it was just the best thing ever. The food at Glastonbury is so good, especially as a vegetarian, they have so much choice. Being there for 6 days I still didn’t get the chance to eat everything I wanted to.



John Peel Stage


Me in my Glastonbury bought skirt

I didn’t take a lot of pictures because I was so caught up in the fun! I wish I had taken more. Until next time!




Nine Black Alps at The Fleece!

Music, My photography

A couple of weeks ago I went to see Nine Black Alps at The Fleece in Bristol. This isn’t the first time I’ve seen them, having seen them at Reading Festival a number of years ago. They’re another favourite from my teenage years, and I’m loving their new album Candy For Clowns! This gig was awesome to photograph, great energy which I hope comes off in the pictures, here’s a few of my favourites -







Love this track off the new album! -

Next week I’m going to Dot To Dot festival in Bristol! I’m really hoping for this heat wave to begin that weekend…

Thanks for reading as always!


Sunglasses and festivals

Fashion, Fashion photography, My photography



I am extremely excited about Glastonbury. This year I managed to get a ticket with my boyfriend, I think the main reason was having good internet this time. I’ve been three times before, twice it rained a lot and the other time the temperature was at a record high! I was there the year the whole place got flooded, it was still awesome though.

I took these pictures the other day. The sunglasses are from Topshop, I love them so much! I really like the 60’s style and the colour is luscious. I thought I’d clash the colours a bit with a bright blue nail polish (Chanel Bel-Argus, £1.50 from a charity shop!) and a red lipstick from Topshop.

Summer’s nearly here!

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How it feels to be 24

My photography, opinion

I guess as you get older time really does go faster. Every week seems to go by like a day used to go by when I was a child. When I was younger days would last forever, like Christmas eve, the day before your birthday or those days you had nothing to do and it was raining outside. Now a day is like an hour, and a week a day, a month a week… so on. Am I the only one feeling this? Time seems to be so fast, say you remember going out with your friends a few days ago but then your like…. NO that was like two weeks ago????? I wished my time away when I was at school, I literally couldn’t wait for it to end, but now I feel like I never want my twenties to end. Not necessarily because I’m having such an awesome time (it has its moments) just because I know I’m going to miss it when it’s gone. However, I wouldn’t say I miss school… at all.

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Highlights of my instagram from the last month or so…

I like Instagram because I love taking photo’s and looking back at them. It’s a never ending photo album, a public one obviously. I do often think what will it be like when we’re older and we show our photos to friends and family… and they’re all on facebook? I do have physical photo albums but I haven’t updated them in years. I miss having ‘physical’ photographs and being able to display them nicely. Sure you can print them out, but it is a bit of a hassle and people just don’t really do it do they? Or maybe they do and I should do it more.

Here are some photographs I took in Church Stretton in the West Midlands…







Thanks for reading



A feminists guide to feminism


I was watching University Challenge the other night. I occasionally watch it because 1) I genuinely find it fascinating how clever the contestants are and 2) Once in a blue moon I might know one of the answers and that makes me feel pretty good. The subject of famous feminists came up for one of the teams and non of them seemed to have a clue about any of it apart from the question about Germaine Greer. I don’t expect everyone to have extensive knowledge of feminism but I do think this pointed out that maybe it’s not a subject a lot of people (even academics) seem to have much knowledge of. Feminism is a really important movement in history, without it the world would be completely different right now. Sometimes it seems like we’ve even taken a step back.

David Cameron doesn’t seem to have a clue what the word feminism even means. Last year he was asked by Red magazine if he himself was a feminist. Cameron replied “I don’t know what I’d call myself … it’s up to others to attach labels. But I believe men and women should be treated equally.” Right. Even Wikipedia seems to have a better understanding of what feminism means. The opening line reads-

Feminism is a collection of movements and ideologies aimed at defining, establishing, and defending equal political, economic, and social rights for women.[1][2] This includes seeking to establish equal opportunities for women in education and employment. A feminist advocates or supports the rights and equality of women.”

It’s not ideal to quote Wikipedia but I’m just trying to point out it should have been a pretty straight forward answer. He later back tracked and told Channel 4 news what he should have actually said was “…if that means equal rights for women, then yes. If that is what you mean by feminist, then yes, I am a feminist.” What else would it mean? Did he think we meant something else?

“David Cameron, do you believe women are better than men?”

“David Cameron, have you ever burnt a bra before?”

Oh and by the way the Oxford Dictionary simply states feminism is – “the advocacy of women’s rights on the ground of the equality of the sexes.”



David Cameron

It’s obvious Cameron was worried what the public would think of him. Because most people believe that feminism means something else entirely. Everyone seems to have their own weird definition of the word feminism, all you have to do is read the truely bizarre comments that come underneath every article ever written about feminism on the internet. The definition should not be up for debate, and if our own prime minister is having trouble calling himself a feminist I think that’s a problem that needs to be addressed.

Nobody wants to be defined as a feminist, it’s not cool and it’s been made into a negative term instead of a positive term. Can I just address this interesting comment I’ve found on here

“Feminism is ridiculous. Feminism is not about ‘equality’ anymore than Beatles fanaticism is about peace. Feminism is the belief that women are and have been throughout history, systematically oppressed by men. Men do not largely subscribe to this belief because, in case you haven’t noticed or just don’t care, men endure more violence than women. Just because you want to make the world happy doesn’t mean any old lie will do for the greater good.”

Okay…. but don’t men endure more violence than women because they are violent towards each other most of the time? If you’re talking about war, women weren’t allowed to fight in the same positions as men and still aren’t. I read an article in Glamour written by Dawn O’Porter recently, and she used this statistic-

” Violence against women is responsible for more deaths and disability in women aged 15-44 globally than cancer, malaria, traffic accidents and war combined”



Dawn O’Porter

The same statistic is also quoted in

I actually cannot believe how much we are still battling with this. We are a 1st world country and barely any of us even know what the word feminism means let alone think it’s important anymore. There is always something more important than feminism right?